memorial day slump.

So I think this is about the most depressed i've felt this whole year. I was doing really good, merging my winnings with my losses. But somehow I feel I hit a wall. We played topanga days festival, and I just felt so blah there for some reason. A hot day, wearing suits, kind of an odd venue for us. Than later on a party that I probably would have been better off skipping. Not that it was terrible, but I ate junkfood, drank, met a lot of people but if felt so random, like I could have been doing something better. And feeling let down by certain people, not being able to tell if they're on my team or not is quite a difficulty. Feeling used and abused and a million miles away from my dreams. Also, feeling like i lost touch with certain people recently and feeling bad about that. I have this feeling i could transcend some of this with excercise but I don't even feel like transcending any more.