Jimmy Friday is the singer for a rock and roll band. He’s also the son of Renegade CIa man Daniel Friday, a man whose wherabouts are unknown. In an attempt to forget his troubled past, Jimmy has developed into a Rock and roll singer and persued his dreams fronting a band called jaw2jaw. Now that band has disbanded and he is looking for new players for his next project.
ZIggy Prague is the pseudonym given to guitar master and CIa agent Martin Siegel. He’s A frustrated musician who has given up his dreams for a real living as a government agent. When he is called upon to be in Jimmy’s new band, he realizes it’s a plan drawn straight from mephistoles – he must betray the singer he idolizes in order to play with him. He is given orders from on high to protect him, inspect him, and be ready to reject him.
Then there is Tina Dahl, the hot bass player who becomes his love interest. She is a government agent who’s skills in the espionage department are so hot that even though she is not a musician, she is given crash courses in bass playing just so that she can keep Jimmy in line as well.
Then there’s Johnny 2 times, the drummer, who has no connection to the cia. He’s just a great drummer and naïve to the craziness around him. The sole survivor along with jimmy from jaw2jaw, he is naïve at first but starts to pick up on the conspiracy within his band thanks to his brilliant engineer girlfriend Sheila, who jokes about it constantly. I am Cadence Miller, ringleader manager, and cia agent.
So I’ve come to the conclusion that generally, people who love to travel are those who haven’t done much of it. I, for one, am tired of the early mornings rushing to the airport, being packed in a tin can in the sky. Coming into Lax last week a friendly united airlines employee was grilling me about my travels. He wore a red vest and expressed a friendly enough demeanor.
‘Wow, you got back from Tokyo? I’ve always wanted to go jaPan.’
‘It’s a lot of fun,’ I growled curtly. He must of remembered me somehow, I couldn’t recall how.
‘I’m hal, remember I checked you in?’ he said. ‘I’m just on break right now. I’d rather come to the magazine rack then go into the break room and listen to everyone complaining about unions and stuff.’
I remembered him now.
‘great memory you have,’ I said reaching my hand out as if he’d earned my respect. He had. He seemed like a smart enough guy, stuck here as a wage slave. Maybe he was a student. ‘Do you go to school?’
‘no I’m in a band. I play the drums.’
‘Really? I manage a band. In fact, we may be auditioning new players. Do you have a card?’
He didn’t waste a second, but reached into his coat pocket and grabbed a card. I grabbed it and looked at it. It didn’t just have his phone and email, but links to a website and EPK.
‘never know who you’re going to meet at the airport,’ he said, smiling. ‘that’s why I don’t mind working here.’
‘But you don’t love it.’
‘of course not. I love playing drums.’
I gave him a card as well. It said my name, Cadence Miller, then, UNITED Management. It had my email and phone number. Then I left and caught a cab.
Los angeles is not as bad as they say. There are so many micro communities and nature spots. Ironic as it seems though, the best places here are the ones that make you forget about the city itself. Topanga canyon, Malibu canyon. Hiking trails off of sierra bonita. You can have the sunset strip, I’d tell the driver to keep driving until were a few miles east, past where Hollywood blvd and sunset kiss, and a few blocks down into silverlake. Like El Cid where Janes addiction played their secret show with Eric avery on bass in 2008. Damn it I had to be in paris that week but I watched most of it on youtube. I made sure not to miss their show at the echoplex at least. That’s why I don’t like leaving this town. You never know what you’re going to miss out on. I told my boss I wanted a break from travels. I told him to get me something where I didn’t have to be a beatnik in the sky, downing adderall instead of Benzedrine. I want to go on juice fasts, bike rides, surfing, and work in my spare time. I’ll even take a pay cut. Hold the phone, I found out I don’t have to take a pay cut. Because of my encyclopedia like knowledge of rock and roll I could ‘play’ a rock and roll manager. Only it wouldn’t be a movie. It would be real life. I’d be talking to booking agents, etc. But I wasn’t in over my head. Andy diamond over at real life management would be talking me through the hard parts, and dealing with the practical aspects of the music business. I would be band psychologist, and spy. See, our boy Jimmy has information we want. It’s information that is so deep in him that he doesn’t even realize anybody would desire it. But it’s there. He’s the son of a mastermind. Sir Daniel Friday. The key is, we don’t need all the information at once. And we eventually want him to work for us. But we must make the spider desire the web. Why the government wants thousands of pages of dossiers on somebody who wants nothing to do with them baffles me. But it’s my work, and money makes the world go around. But music is the axis from what it spins. So I’m just going to have to let it whirl. Can I order you a drink? I’ll have the irish car bomb, but I’m not gonna dunk the shot glass into the Guinness, I’m just going to pour the likor in cause I’m a bit of a germophobe.
So our man jimmy thinks he’s some kind of modern day joe strummer. He’s never been the same since he saw the doc. About him at the nuart. The future is unwritten, it was called. He saw a film star washing his hands in the bathroom and didn’t say hello. But he did shout out, ‘wasn’t that awesome?’ and found it funny that this star was the son of an actress who’s most famous movie’s actor had one of his obscure early flicks showing in the future at the nuart and was shown in the trailer. He ran down the street in a manic skip, popped in his car rolled home. Once there, he got out his beat up graffiti sprayed macbook pro and began pecking in his online blog.
IN THE NEW BaND THERE WE won’t have a website. We will be all word of mouth. Possible band names: tantrum, vinyl clocks. Need to get some cool skinny ties and suspenders. Need to get a suit and spill paint on it. Only get band members that won’t sell out. Play venues downtown, like Rosebud, the smell. It’s not about the money.
So the way I’m going to get through to him is through sublety. I’ll go to some of his gigs, give him my card. It works every time. Let him know I’m no a&r guy. I’m an artist myself. Even have some of my very own songs on itunes. He’s not going to know what hit him.
Jimmy’s flat at the million dollar hotel. Plastic glow crucifix on a statue of Buddha. A book called the gospel of levi, which recounts jesus’s lost years. A carafe halfway filled with rice sake. A towel hung on the shower, used for drying hands and drying after bathing. Most of all the view. The view is that there is no view. His first room without a view. But that’s the price of freedom. No more record deal, the advance from jaw2jaw ran out long ago. No more trust fund, no more nothin’. Didn’t bother jimmy that much. Well, maybe a little bit. As ice cube said, mo money mo problems. His favorite watering hole a block down. His one stop lkor shop on the way. He told igor he wanted the camel reds where it said $6 and pleasantly reprimanded him when charged $7. He couldn’t let that stuff go anymore. He no longer had more money then god. And who’s hanging out at the watering hole? Let’s have a look see. Plenty of USC girls from new york city. Harboring a secret love for the new downtown because it’s reminding them more and more of the home they left behind. Personal assistants for actors who want to be actors, waiters who want to sing. It was perfect. He opened his journal and thought about Leah, the beautiful young woman who claimed to be one of the enlightened ones of the new age. They call them indigo children. She inspired this:
indigo, don’t say you gotta go:
crush is when the colors come out.
He thought about powdered incense, how it had to be crushed to smell good. He thought about Indigo leaving his flat, giving him nothing but a kiss on the cheek and that stomach ache that wouldn’t leave for a week. Hopeless romantic? No you would have gotten one too if you were a 26 year old straight male. Then he wrote down:
No more Girls.
For now.
They always got him off track. Like the last one. He wrote this for her:
It’s not your fault. You’re all the rage.
Addicted to angst but you’ve got great legs.
You will not download
Her emotional hardware
She’s bound to break
But acts like she don’t care
she’s beautiful but an emotional brain-bot
they taught her from birth
to be a dilettante
pharmaceutical clone with a large evil eye
it takes a semester just to learn how to cry.
Get ready for electrical brainwaves
Helmets visors and headphones too
We’ll get instructions
How to start our life all over again if that’s what we choose!
Hone in perfect detail
Lasers seen holographically
Spinning shapes so geometrical
Satellite systems I’m absorbed
In the screen
I’ve died / been reborn
Into a warrior never torn between what’s right and wrong
I live for the rye and the song. Human tongue/ snake tongue.
Then his cell phone rang. It was me.
‘We gonna do that audition?’ I asked. ‘Because I have somebody I think would be a great guitar player. He went to Berklee, and he’s amazing.’
‘I don’t want any jazz heads,’ he said. ‘I mean, I like coltrane, mingus, miles, as much as the next guy but I’m not looking for some dude with a strap on metronome.’
‘just shut up. Have I been wrong before? And I’ve got a great bass player for you too.’
‘Just as long as he’s into peter hook and eric avery.’
‘She’s like your twin.’
‘SHE? Is she pretty?’
‘That’s irrelevant. Be there tomorrow at noon.’
Honestly, I wasn’t sure how to go about the audition. All I knew is who had to be the chosen ones. Jimmy and his drummer Johnny 2 times were a given. And so were the chosen ones. Ziggy was already a master, but I had him study every note of the first 3 janes addiction albums and bought him an instructional video of Dave Navarro. He arrived to the audition with his long legs sticking out of his blue shorts which had long zippers going all the way to the bottom. He had a funky red tuxedo shirt with a black tie. It sounds odd but it kind of worked. Tina Dahl didn’t have to worry about her appearance. She was beautiful in the fishnet stockings, high heels that take talent to walk in, and a perfectly made up face with luscious red lips to match her strawberry red hair. She pulled out her red Gibson sg bass and was ready to go.
‘I don’t use any pedals, I just want to plug right in,’ she said. I had them wait a little while as we tried out some people from and ad we ran on craigslist. There were still plenty of old timers still trying to live the dream. Along with some straight out of rehabbers and other various burnouts. Good people, hearts in the right places, some were even skilled. But the timing was off. And rock and roll is all about timing. By the time Tina and Ziggy were ready, jimmy and Johnny were ready for action. They plunged into some old jaw2jaw favorites, and then mountain song by janes addiction. It was an easy fit, a cinderella’s shoe. Jimmy nodded me to come to the back room.
‘ok, I owe you one,’ he said.
Believe me, it’s not always this easy.
‘Shut the fuck up, this isn’t funny,’ Martin Siegel roared into the phone. Usually he wasn’t like this. He thought I was toying with him. I wasn’t. ‘jaw to jaw is one of my favorite bands. You can’t be serious.’
‘We’ve searched everyone in the database. There’s a few other notable musicians, but we are attracted to the fact that you specialize in guitar. In other words, that’s aLL you specialize in, in terms of music. and you’ve got the right taste for the band.’
‘This doesn’t make sense. So this is some kind of under cover job? Like I have to keep tabs on him or something?’
‘Just think of it like you’re journaling about the details of someone’s character. Oh, and also, you need to protect him. We don’t want him harmed. We just want to know what he’s up to. And you need to be able to rock, which you are.’
‘This is too bizarre. I feel like I’m in a movie. Shit. Does this mean I have to live in l. a.?’
‘Yeah, you’ll like it. And think of a pseudonymn.’
‘That’s easy. Ziggy Prague. I made it up on tour like a decade ago. Prague was my favorite city.’
‘Why?’
‘The girls.’
Band Meeting.
We all got into a room. All I know is it was by a pool table. Oh, and it was in a restaurant shaped like the titanic. It was a few blocks from the Wiltern. Don’t even ask how many shows I’ve been to there. The pogues was my favorite one.
‘So now we gotta think of a band name.’
“So we’re in?” Ziggy pounced. He still couldn’t believe it.
Jimmy took a swig from his black coffee and muttered, ‘of course.’ He sat at the head of the table like he was the CEO. He leaned forward a bit.
‘I’ve been thinking. One of my favorite bands from the early 80’s is the police. Ever thought how funny it is that they called themselves The Police?’
‘oh here we go,’ I thought.
‘Every band needs a myles Copeland. You’re our myles Copeland,’ he waved a finger toward me. ‘Did you know he’s the drummer Stuart’s brother?’
I nodded slightly, knowing the whole story. They were raised in Lebanon, along with the other brother Ian, whom I saw speak at the Roosevelt hotel before he passed away. He had run IRS records which had REM and the gogo’s, among others.
‘and their dad was in the cia.’ His eyes darted toward me knowingly.
‘shit,’ I thought. ‘Is he in on something?’
‘I was thinking. We could call the band Cia. What do you guys think?
Tina and Ziggy looked at each other for a brief second then looked away.
‘kind of weird,’ kwipped Johnny 2 times, not needing to be the yes man.
‘I like it,’ said tina, looking at me. ‘It’s endearing.’
Ziggy was back in his apartment in santa monica, trying to contain his excitement. Had I actually done something right in my life? He thought to himself. There had been no party in his soul before. Now there was a rager. He had to write.
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Sunday, February 14, 2010
रेतिरेमेंट speech
When I think about my dad, I think of the quote ‘genius is eternal patience’ by Michelangelo. The reason I think of this particular saying is that often times John Ferrick has ideas that appear eccentric, but usually he has the last laugh. Like the karate kid questioning mr. miyagi, the Ferrick boys sometimes questioned some of his methods growing up, not always realizing there was sometimes a reason and a purpose for ‘wax on, wax off.’ I think the older I get the more I appreciate dad’s unconventional ways, and I often, although not always, find myself agreeing with him in ways I didn’t before.
The retirement of John Ferrick is a milestone in our family history. It reaffirms our belief in miracles. I personally wasn’t sure as of a year or two ago whether my dad was going to retire at all. It seemed as if he was going to keep working forever. I’m pleased that he has decided to move on so that he can persue other interests in his life. And now he can finally get a little rest! I remember my dad waking up early every morning, for years, and leaving for work at the crack of dawn. He not only put in a lot of overtime at the post office, in an environment that wasn’t always conducive to his well being, and on top of that he put in a lot of time as a union representative, for many years being President of the union. He did certain things at the Post Office that I’m sure he’ll be remembered for, like fighting to have cigarette smoking banned indoors, which I’m sure wasn’t a popular decision with a lot of the employees, but one that many other people surely appreciated.
And he’s apparently going out without a whimper- I just found out he’s decided to continue contributing writing articles for the union newsletter. I like reading them, as they’re filled with honest insight, stoic and philosophical wit in an environment where such wisdom is needed even if not always welcomed. I think that place is going to miss my dad. As I was driving by the post office in December, I realized it was first time in my entire life that I was passing by it and my father was no longer working there. So, after growing up in south central los angeles, going to catholic high school, surviving Vietnam and over 38 years at work, it’s time for Dad to relax or not to relax, deciding his next move in peace. And I gotta say for 64 years old, he’s still looking pretty young and is still full of hip ideas. So we’re expecting the next miracle: those two 1954 chevys in the back yard will be running in no time. Thanks dad for all the sacrifices you made for us, take a deep breath and enjoy a very significant birthday celebration.
The retirement of John Ferrick is a milestone in our family history. It reaffirms our belief in miracles. I personally wasn’t sure as of a year or two ago whether my dad was going to retire at all. It seemed as if he was going to keep working forever. I’m pleased that he has decided to move on so that he can persue other interests in his life. And now he can finally get a little rest! I remember my dad waking up early every morning, for years, and leaving for work at the crack of dawn. He not only put in a lot of overtime at the post office, in an environment that wasn’t always conducive to his well being, and on top of that he put in a lot of time as a union representative, for many years being President of the union. He did certain things at the Post Office that I’m sure he’ll be remembered for, like fighting to have cigarette smoking banned indoors, which I’m sure wasn’t a popular decision with a lot of the employees, but one that many other people surely appreciated.
And he’s apparently going out without a whimper- I just found out he’s decided to continue contributing writing articles for the union newsletter. I like reading them, as they’re filled with honest insight, stoic and philosophical wit in an environment where such wisdom is needed even if not always welcomed. I think that place is going to miss my dad. As I was driving by the post office in December, I realized it was first time in my entire life that I was passing by it and my father was no longer working there. So, after growing up in south central los angeles, going to catholic high school, surviving Vietnam and over 38 years at work, it’s time for Dad to relax or not to relax, deciding his next move in peace. And I gotta say for 64 years old, he’s still looking pretty young and is still full of hip ideas. So we’re expecting the next miracle: those two 1954 chevys in the back yard will be running in no time. Thanks dad for all the sacrifices you made for us, take a deep breath and enjoy a very significant birthday celebration.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Maximum U
Working with what is.
First thing to realize about your life is to understand that if you want to change and develop a better future you must accept what you are right now. That means that your pain and regret that you feel has been holding you back can actually become that what propels you forward.
Whatever is getting in the way of you living completely in bliss is in the past. Getting that out of the way and being related with life as it is, Is what matters. Instead of pretending you have all the answers, you should get into a space of speculation- not resolution. Resolve to not need to know the final answer in this space of time. That takes the psychic pressure off of you and causes a more peaceful solution to spring forth from within you. You must realize that there is no kwik fix- just try to do better slowly but surely, as if chipping away at an invisible stone.
Forming new Brain Patterns-
The Brain matrix- stand in nothingness as if you are starting all over again. If you can create anything at all for your life, what would it be? Is it now time to bridge the gap between fantasy and reality? Is falling in love with the harmful aspects of your personality, your comfort zone, keeping you from being who you could fully be?
The essence of attraction- this is related to being committed to ideals, yet unattached to the outcome. “I am” is referring to something you think you are. There is no past, if you really think about it. There is no “self either. You have to have a superior cause that is worth giving your past to.
Don’t sell out to being practical. Be unreasonable. Does the present existence, the drama you are playing out enliven you? If not, take this current moment to change your position. Restart the chess game, reprogramming your brain. You can do this.
Power comes through the simplest way. Simplicity is your essence. It’s who you’ve always been the core. If it wasn’t for all the trauma you have endured throughout your life, you would be living simply. But because of pain and the need to avoid suffering your life has become complicated. Through trying to heal ourselves we’ve often made our wounds worse. The best way to confront this reality is to humbly realize that many times you could have chosen a better route, but that you have tried your best. You are only human, stop beating up yourself.
How can you live the rest of your life in endless exuberance? If there was a way to live in a higher vibration, would you be willing to make the necessary changes? Whatever is getting in the way of getting what you want, be willing to give that up, in such a way as if you were slowly peeling an onion. Getting into your new rhythm slowly is key to lasting change.
Keep your eyes and ears opened for serendipitous opportunities. Keep aware of coincidences and synergy of life. Create power using full yet simple language in your every day reality. Simplicity is elegance.
Prepare for miracles, and reorganize your view of reality. Instead of telling people about your ideas, share them. Make everybody who you love and respect part of your dream. If somebody does not fit into your movie, edit them out.
There are no loopholes. Become a reality junky. Reality is more endlessly fascinating then any altered state could ever be. Don’t be afraid of feeling tired. What do you have in your life that is worth being fully present to? Find something every morning that is worth throwing the covers off of your bed and jumping into the shower.
You are not the fixed identity you think you are. Your ego, your concerns, past nightmares.
Failure is not fatality. If I fail the game, it doesn’t mean I’m a failure. There is too much fear of failure in the world. You are living out the real punishment of an unreal story.
Positive thinking doesn’t solve negative thinking. You must go beyond them by being moved and inspired, giving up hopelessness and hope.
Occurring impossible does not = impossible.
Don’t think you’ll ever get to the top of the mountain where everything is perfected. There is no ‘it’s difficult’ in reality- these negative aspects only actually occur in words.
You were born whole and complete, until you said ‘something’s wrong here.’ You must do the work that is laid in front of you. You must deal with what is not whole and complete- that which persistently keeps you from being the maximum you. You know that you have dealt with something effectively if It no longer disturbs you. It is time to knock over every fear like your bowling down balls. Until nothing negatively affects you any more.
What if it feels impossible to capably deal with this stuff? There is a solution for every problem, simply because of the fact that it happened in distance time and space. You didn’t start out with these problems, and you can lose them.
There is a difference between uneducated and stupid. Become a master of distinction. Share where you have not been authentic. Create a new possibility, then be it. Create new possibilities, and learn to give yourself and the universe instructions.
Learn to love the bullshit. Love the unworkability of life. Learn to embrace the chaos. You can be with people- the story of fear is what stops you- not the fear itself.
We are all going to fail in life. Which means there is absolute freedom to fail in any other game. Our comfort zone is what inhibits freedom, along with our ego need to be seen as correct. Even some of our strengths come from this lack of freedom. What happens is that in your youth, something disappointing occurs as failure in our own mind. This creates your ego defenses, which keeps you from being fully present with other human beings.
High concern for failure logically makes no sense. You don’t need the white picket fence, or all the other sundries that everybody tries to convince you that you need. They don’t need them either.
Experience being someone else. I don’t have to try to be the best if I get rid of everything but the best. Brainwash yourself.
Using the knowledge of physics which we are all subject to, to improve your life. For something to exist, there is a condition that needs to be present. For instance, there can be no life on earth without water. We don’t relate to ourselves as clear. We think of ourselves as separate, with a fixed way of existence. In nature you can’t have a vacuum- you must fill your void with the best stuff on earth. Not the shit that you’ve been piling up because of your past traumatic experiences. These only give you the same results over and over.
One phenomenon about your past condition is that you continue to perpetrate this reality by the words and language that you use. Who you are is nothing, so reinvent yourself. If you weren’t your delusions, what could you possibly accomplish? What has allowed that condition to be available? Get out of your own way. Icing on the mudpie. You now have the ability to dissolve your problems, simply by receiving permission from a source outside of yourself, which validates what you already know.
Brainwashing yourself- what if the way you have been living is actually unreal? The old self, the self from the past. This all arises from the words and language you assign to your problems. Stop acknowledging them and from lack of care they will dissolve. Try to do this little by little, not all at once. Nobody can do your work for you however, and don’t expect it to be easy. The invention of yourself is a game. But it’s a game you can reprogram. Be in touch with the source of your own power to such a degree that you become in control of a total transformation. Get rid of brick walls. Once an environment get’s created, what is possible is very simple. Reinvent yourself. Romantic rock and roler. A stud with courage. And although you have the ability to reinvent yourself, don’t get stuck with that invention. Only use it for as long as it serves your cause. To get stuck on your invention=craziness. From where am I inventing myself? Out of nothingness- whatever I invent is a possibility. We think the future is predictable because our past has been in our future. What direction has your life been moving in? wouldn’t you rather cause the orbit of your experience move in a more positive direction? There has been too much past in your future. Get it out now.
The not you yet= ‘I gotta figure this out- what is my realm of future possibilitys?’ stop and think about how great life could be if you’d stop selling yourself short. What are you inventing yourself as? What realm of possibility could you be giving yourself that you aren’t? who are you a possibility for? Everyone. The clearing for joy. People get joy from you being your highest self. Don’t deprive them of this. Also, have them hold you accountable. Share and contribute and praise your peers for their criticisms.
In your life, you got circumstances. These come from beyond choice. They aren’t your fault, but you can choose how you respond. Reinvent your new choices every day. Write down what your are slowly willing to say goodbye to. Changing the wheel over, molding the clay. Transforming my transformation. If www.goherenext.com you’re the only point in the universe, is there location? Possibility doesn’t actually physically exist however. You cannot point to possibility- but it can be created. Who am i: social. What am I giving up? Solitary. How do I make it real? It’s that I can invent that matters.
I invent someone with perfect hygiene and health.
Deliver that which makes a difference. Give up the way people “occur” for you. What are you concerned with? Empower and enable people to be transformed by your transformation.
Transformation machine- this is what you are now. Create a new view of yourself today. Embrace your faith and you will soon come clean. Inspire us all: closed minds are unwise and not fun. Create a future as if you’re creating a new game. Be like tom sawyer.
Integrity is good karma because when you are full of it, you must take action. When you are not true to yourself, you become lazy and full of slow energies. It is extremely important that your actions are true to who you are. Integrity is the key to success. Your identity should not be tied to your skills. As you begin to take action in your life, there will always be obstacles in your way. Think of these obstacles as a sign that your are going on the right track.
You must figure out your unique command. It is a defense mechanism that we all have. Here are some:
Don’t screw with me.
I am easily offended.
I don’t need your help.
I don’t need anybody.
Speculate what kind of projects you could take on if you would be willing to give up a unique command. For instance, you may have the command ‘I don’t need your help’ and somebody tries to help you launch a business but you sabotage it because of a subconscious need to prove your command right. Are you trying so hard to appear correct that you do this kind of stuff? What are the dreams you’ve given up on over the years that you could go back to after discarding your unique command?
The capacity to share and contribute. Power is a function of distinction- for instance, larry bird. He’s not the best ball player in the world. But yet he formed a niche.
See things others cannot see. There are no problems in reality. For instance, your career is not taking off. Or your not making enough money. In reality, these actually aren’t problems. You must learn to have tunnel vision for your desire.
I want x but y.
Rethink the problem from this formula. Rethink and recreate a new realm of possibility. Be present and get complete with your past. Start to get interested in that which lights you up. What is it? Take action on your commitments. Explosions of expressions.
Path to adventure: enlivened, fulfilled, turned on, inspired nature of commitments – honor your word, be brave, principles, being inspiring, stand up for what is right.
My character’s limitations:
So the new story of your life can run uninterrupted:
Short attention span: to jump to only what is very enlivened.
Create the space of a new realm of possibility for commitment- hidden and undeclared commitments are not bad. Have the courage to be authentic about your having been inauthentic. Unencumbered is not free. When I am people pleasing, I’m not doing what I want. Living from a weak center instead of a strong core- not feeling free- feeling owed constantly.
Alive and free- who can you be right now?
Speculate on the possibilities- a person who is a master in the art of living makes little distinction between work and play. Deal with what is actually happening. Mastery- dealing with exactly what the I you think is. Get out of your own way! Your love for your own well being is preventing you from seeing what’s right in front of your eyes.
“he who tries to save his life will lose it” Christ
you’re trying not to suffer- you want to look good so you put on a constant disguise. Out of desperation you deadened your communication, and it gets worse every day. Remember: you cannot be great and small at the same time.
Source of action= source of results when you’re lit up you’re lit up, even if there is failure present. What is the source of action? Understanding + knowledge. Performance comes from action. Actions are a correlate. We don’t live like life is currently occurring.
Perception has to do with biology.
Human beings mess up commitments, turning being committed into being perfect. Nature of expectation- unfulfilled.
First thing to realize about your life is to understand that if you want to change and develop a better future you must accept what you are right now. That means that your pain and regret that you feel has been holding you back can actually become that what propels you forward.
Whatever is getting in the way of you living completely in bliss is in the past. Getting that out of the way and being related with life as it is, Is what matters. Instead of pretending you have all the answers, you should get into a space of speculation- not resolution. Resolve to not need to know the final answer in this space of time. That takes the psychic pressure off of you and causes a more peaceful solution to spring forth from within you. You must realize that there is no kwik fix- just try to do better slowly but surely, as if chipping away at an invisible stone.
Forming new Brain Patterns-
The Brain matrix- stand in nothingness as if you are starting all over again. If you can create anything at all for your life, what would it be? Is it now time to bridge the gap between fantasy and reality? Is falling in love with the harmful aspects of your personality, your comfort zone, keeping you from being who you could fully be?
The essence of attraction- this is related to being committed to ideals, yet unattached to the outcome. “I am” is referring to something you think you are. There is no past, if you really think about it. There is no “self either. You have to have a superior cause that is worth giving your past to.
Don’t sell out to being practical. Be unreasonable. Does the present existence, the drama you are playing out enliven you? If not, take this current moment to change your position. Restart the chess game, reprogramming your brain. You can do this.
Power comes through the simplest way. Simplicity is your essence. It’s who you’ve always been the core. If it wasn’t for all the trauma you have endured throughout your life, you would be living simply. But because of pain and the need to avoid suffering your life has become complicated. Through trying to heal ourselves we’ve often made our wounds worse. The best way to confront this reality is to humbly realize that many times you could have chosen a better route, but that you have tried your best. You are only human, stop beating up yourself.
How can you live the rest of your life in endless exuberance? If there was a way to live in a higher vibration, would you be willing to make the necessary changes? Whatever is getting in the way of getting what you want, be willing to give that up, in such a way as if you were slowly peeling an onion. Getting into your new rhythm slowly is key to lasting change.
Keep your eyes and ears opened for serendipitous opportunities. Keep aware of coincidences and synergy of life. Create power using full yet simple language in your every day reality. Simplicity is elegance.
Prepare for miracles, and reorganize your view of reality. Instead of telling people about your ideas, share them. Make everybody who you love and respect part of your dream. If somebody does not fit into your movie, edit them out.
There are no loopholes. Become a reality junky. Reality is more endlessly fascinating then any altered state could ever be. Don’t be afraid of feeling tired. What do you have in your life that is worth being fully present to? Find something every morning that is worth throwing the covers off of your bed and jumping into the shower.
You are not the fixed identity you think you are. Your ego, your concerns, past nightmares.
Failure is not fatality. If I fail the game, it doesn’t mean I’m a failure. There is too much fear of failure in the world. You are living out the real punishment of an unreal story.
Positive thinking doesn’t solve negative thinking. You must go beyond them by being moved and inspired, giving up hopelessness and hope.
Occurring impossible does not = impossible.
Don’t think you’ll ever get to the top of the mountain where everything is perfected. There is no ‘it’s difficult’ in reality- these negative aspects only actually occur in words.
You were born whole and complete, until you said ‘something’s wrong here.’ You must do the work that is laid in front of you. You must deal with what is not whole and complete- that which persistently keeps you from being the maximum you. You know that you have dealt with something effectively if It no longer disturbs you. It is time to knock over every fear like your bowling down balls. Until nothing negatively affects you any more.
What if it feels impossible to capably deal with this stuff? There is a solution for every problem, simply because of the fact that it happened in distance time and space. You didn’t start out with these problems, and you can lose them.
There is a difference between uneducated and stupid. Become a master of distinction. Share where you have not been authentic. Create a new possibility, then be it. Create new possibilities, and learn to give yourself and the universe instructions.
Learn to love the bullshit. Love the unworkability of life. Learn to embrace the chaos. You can be with people- the story of fear is what stops you- not the fear itself.
We are all going to fail in life. Which means there is absolute freedom to fail in any other game. Our comfort zone is what inhibits freedom, along with our ego need to be seen as correct. Even some of our strengths come from this lack of freedom. What happens is that in your youth, something disappointing occurs as failure in our own mind. This creates your ego defenses, which keeps you from being fully present with other human beings.
High concern for failure logically makes no sense. You don’t need the white picket fence, or all the other sundries that everybody tries to convince you that you need. They don’t need them either.
Experience being someone else. I don’t have to try to be the best if I get rid of everything but the best. Brainwash yourself.
Using the knowledge of physics which we are all subject to, to improve your life. For something to exist, there is a condition that needs to be present. For instance, there can be no life on earth without water. We don’t relate to ourselves as clear. We think of ourselves as separate, with a fixed way of existence. In nature you can’t have a vacuum- you must fill your void with the best stuff on earth. Not the shit that you’ve been piling up because of your past traumatic experiences. These only give you the same results over and over.
One phenomenon about your past condition is that you continue to perpetrate this reality by the words and language that you use. Who you are is nothing, so reinvent yourself. If you weren’t your delusions, what could you possibly accomplish? What has allowed that condition to be available? Get out of your own way. Icing on the mudpie. You now have the ability to dissolve your problems, simply by receiving permission from a source outside of yourself, which validates what you already know.
Brainwashing yourself- what if the way you have been living is actually unreal? The old self, the self from the past. This all arises from the words and language you assign to your problems. Stop acknowledging them and from lack of care they will dissolve. Try to do this little by little, not all at once. Nobody can do your work for you however, and don’t expect it to be easy. The invention of yourself is a game. But it’s a game you can reprogram. Be in touch with the source of your own power to such a degree that you become in control of a total transformation. Get rid of brick walls. Once an environment get’s created, what is possible is very simple. Reinvent yourself. Romantic rock and roler. A stud with courage. And although you have the ability to reinvent yourself, don’t get stuck with that invention. Only use it for as long as it serves your cause. To get stuck on your invention=craziness. From where am I inventing myself? Out of nothingness- whatever I invent is a possibility. We think the future is predictable because our past has been in our future. What direction has your life been moving in? wouldn’t you rather cause the orbit of your experience move in a more positive direction? There has been too much past in your future. Get it out now.
The not you yet= ‘I gotta figure this out- what is my realm of future possibilitys?’ stop and think about how great life could be if you’d stop selling yourself short. What are you inventing yourself as? What realm of possibility could you be giving yourself that you aren’t? who are you a possibility for? Everyone. The clearing for joy. People get joy from you being your highest self. Don’t deprive them of this. Also, have them hold you accountable. Share and contribute and praise your peers for their criticisms.
In your life, you got circumstances. These come from beyond choice. They aren’t your fault, but you can choose how you respond. Reinvent your new choices every day. Write down what your are slowly willing to say goodbye to. Changing the wheel over, molding the clay. Transforming my transformation. If www.goherenext.com you’re the only point in the universe, is there location? Possibility doesn’t actually physically exist however. You cannot point to possibility- but it can be created. Who am i: social. What am I giving up? Solitary. How do I make it real? It’s that I can invent that matters.
I invent someone with perfect hygiene and health.
Deliver that which makes a difference. Give up the way people “occur” for you. What are you concerned with? Empower and enable people to be transformed by your transformation.
Transformation machine- this is what you are now. Create a new view of yourself today. Embrace your faith and you will soon come clean. Inspire us all: closed minds are unwise and not fun. Create a future as if you’re creating a new game. Be like tom sawyer.
Integrity is good karma because when you are full of it, you must take action. When you are not true to yourself, you become lazy and full of slow energies. It is extremely important that your actions are true to who you are. Integrity is the key to success. Your identity should not be tied to your skills. As you begin to take action in your life, there will always be obstacles in your way. Think of these obstacles as a sign that your are going on the right track.
You must figure out your unique command. It is a defense mechanism that we all have. Here are some:
Don’t screw with me.
I am easily offended.
I don’t need your help.
I don’t need anybody.
Speculate what kind of projects you could take on if you would be willing to give up a unique command. For instance, you may have the command ‘I don’t need your help’ and somebody tries to help you launch a business but you sabotage it because of a subconscious need to prove your command right. Are you trying so hard to appear correct that you do this kind of stuff? What are the dreams you’ve given up on over the years that you could go back to after discarding your unique command?
The capacity to share and contribute. Power is a function of distinction- for instance, larry bird. He’s not the best ball player in the world. But yet he formed a niche.
See things others cannot see. There are no problems in reality. For instance, your career is not taking off. Or your not making enough money. In reality, these actually aren’t problems. You must learn to have tunnel vision for your desire.
I want x but y.
Rethink the problem from this formula. Rethink and recreate a new realm of possibility. Be present and get complete with your past. Start to get interested in that which lights you up. What is it? Take action on your commitments. Explosions of expressions.
Path to adventure: enlivened, fulfilled, turned on, inspired nature of commitments – honor your word, be brave, principles, being inspiring, stand up for what is right.
My character’s limitations:
So the new story of your life can run uninterrupted:
Short attention span: to jump to only what is very enlivened.
Create the space of a new realm of possibility for commitment- hidden and undeclared commitments are not bad. Have the courage to be authentic about your having been inauthentic. Unencumbered is not free. When I am people pleasing, I’m not doing what I want. Living from a weak center instead of a strong core- not feeling free- feeling owed constantly.
Alive and free- who can you be right now?
Speculate on the possibilities- a person who is a master in the art of living makes little distinction between work and play. Deal with what is actually happening. Mastery- dealing with exactly what the I you think is. Get out of your own way! Your love for your own well being is preventing you from seeing what’s right in front of your eyes.
“he who tries to save his life will lose it” Christ
you’re trying not to suffer- you want to look good so you put on a constant disguise. Out of desperation you deadened your communication, and it gets worse every day. Remember: you cannot be great and small at the same time.
Source of action= source of results when you’re lit up you’re lit up, even if there is failure present. What is the source of action? Understanding + knowledge. Performance comes from action. Actions are a correlate. We don’t live like life is currently occurring.
Perception has to do with biology.
Human beings mess up commitments, turning being committed into being perfect. Nature of expectation- unfulfilled.
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