benefit

benefit of the doubt

i wish i could love you
i used to put nobody above you
the stars in the sky
were under your feet

but every one must grow up
and drink a bitter cup
of cruel
reality

why does it have to be the ones
we love the most
that lead us astray

no matter how much they shout
i always give you the
benefit of the doubt

and then they scream
it ain't what it seems, boy,
ain't what it seems

Why I've decided to go the indiegogo/ kickstarter route.

I believe we make the world a better place when we make our own world a better place. When we are happy, smiling, and attending to the path that is part of our mission, we give others permission to tread their own paths as well. In this society we live in everyone is supposed to go down a certain route, and those that don't go down that route don't always have the easiest time surviving. Some call it the road less traveled, inspired by the Robert Frost poem. When I found out about kickstarter and indiegogo, I realized that I may be able to fund the album that I've been wanting to do for years. Or I could just do what I've been doing, writing the songs and recording them myself, mainly on computer, once in a while recording with someone else. I tucked the idea away for later because I felt like I didn't have the confidence to ask people for their money. But when it was recommended to me via my cousin, I felt like it was the extra push I needed. Often times I get hit up for things that I can't afford to contribute to and it makes me feel bad that I don't have more to give. That's why the requests I'm going after are more towards, only donate if you feel you have the means. Or if you know someone else who does, let them know. The best surprises often come when we're not expecting them.

Cover letter

Hello!
I am interested in your position at the hostel, preferably the Noon to
6 position. I think That i would be a good candidate here, partially
because I have stayed in hostels myself. Where you might ask? India,
Prague, Paris, Ireland, Amsterdam, and all over the U.S. too. I'm a
musician, been travelling in bands, and drove a taxi in Los Angeles, I
know this city from the west side to the south side to the valley and
everywhere in between. I've worked office jobs, service jobs, airline
jobs, and restaurants. I haven't yet worked at a hostel though! Sounds
fun! Try me!

IPPT CERT

IPPT 5664 vineland ave. noho ca. 91601
818-980-8990
jeremy ferrick
completed 260 hours of
advanced phys therapy aide trainig
as of 12/22/10

TEFL CERT

Phoenix TEFL Centre of Ireland

19 Stockton Drive, Castleknock, Dublin 15, DublinPhone: +353 (0)1 8208462

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completed march 2003 course director: patrick finn
graded: excellent

Real estate

My real estate document says
permanent student record- transcript
real estate license services
5059 newport ave. #209
s.d. ca. 92107
619-222-2425
signed by michael lustig
date 8/19/2003
student id:192285
wk ph: 510-5270778
reg date: 8/29/02

THE KOSHER COMMITTEE

TRUST FUND ASSHOLE

so you fucked
me over but
you still
invite
me to your
gigs
if i come to
your house
you'll call
the pigs
oh yeah
you screwed
me over
but i'm glad
cause hangn
with you
just made
me mad
so your mama
and your
daddy
didn't like
me anyway
you're just
another
trust fund
asshole
living in
l.a.
what did
you think
i was
supposed to
do?
just keep on
putting up
with you?

i'd RATHEr

i'd rather
be a tree
then a
tumble
weed
but i do what comes
naturally
honey
and the
bumble
bee

this is where the story
begins- how many hours
do we put in?
doing the
things that
we want to
do
makin' the
world
a better
place
for you

if i'm swimming in the sea
i'm gonna
stay all day not coming out till the sky is beige..........

them ho's!

how i love
them ho's
samoan
japanese
hawaiian
too
german
french
beautiful
jews
au
canada!
to
mexico
love
them
women
love
them
ho's.

HERE WE GO!

do it now
do it here
do it well
for all to see
give em
hell
give em
something
to remember
more then lectures
in september
more then adventures more then roc

read

red queen

GENIUS

ivory tower idiots
people with no souls
get things done faster
so they can go sit alone
in their ivory towers
you look pretty
in your
fancy
dress
but i detect
unhappiness
think you know what you're talking

p.t. notes

1940s ww2, polio, huge growth of physical therapy profession as a result of treating injured ww2 soldiers- rehab- vocational and emotional. intensive instead of aggressive.

drug&drink

who is not on some kind
of drug
or drink
pills are
supposed to
help you
think
aldous huxley style
or maybe orwell
is that more
like it
is this city
some kind of animal
farm
dispense the toxics
out just like it's candy
lets get this bipolar in order
i'm ready to bend
ready to break
to avoid facing the
shit that
needs me.

repressed nobilitee

REPRESSED NOBILITY IS A TERM I DESIGNATE TO MY BRETHREN THAT SECRETLY OR NOT SO SECRETLY BELIEVE, IN A RIGHTEOUS MANNER, THAT THEY DESERVE A MORE GRACIOUS BOUNTY THAN LIFE HAS OFFERED THEM. THOSE WHO COULD NOT AFFORD HIGHER EDUCATION AND DID NOT WANT TO GO INTO DEBT GETTING IT. THOSE WHO GOT IT AND STILL FOUND IT DIDN’T SATISFY THE NEEDS OF A SEVERE JOB MARKET.
Some of these people have gone to live off the grid. Unable to be force fed the nightmares of the american dream, which tells you that if you work hard you can have whatever you like. That you can keep what you earned for you and yours.

eatenyears

I stood by you for a long long time
too bad you didn't make it worth it
now i must get back the years gone by
the ones that the locusts have eaten
you call me names you should be calling yourself
i will not be defeated

praying to forgive
so i can move on and live
because you're not worth my time
you can't seem to rememeber what i can't forget
how i wasted every dime
thats to your lack of gratitude
i've developed quite and attitude
it's your fault that from now on
i will take longer to get to know

all the fires i p'ut out and the years filled with doubt
i should have listened to my heart.
sometimes when you're counting on your intellect
Is when you're not smart
you're a useless eater i should have known
just like all the rest with your contradictions

and thats when
you're at
your best

THE MOZART EXPERIMENT
A lot of my life I have suffered with some problems, sort of a combination of mild A.D.D. And OCD. I have decided that it is time to work very hard on getting my life on track. I have decided, after reading the Book “the mozart effect,.’
I am going to mainly listen to mozart. I might even, for a while, exclusively listen to mozart, and force more discipline upon myself in other areas of my life. For instance, making me do things i don’t necessarily want to do, like math problems, taking classes in school where i have to use my brain more, etc. And keeping a blog about it. I’m not sure exactly where this motion is headed, as it’s undeveloped

No such thing as best
Obituary cinder
We see it every day
News headlines and personal trauma
She helps it to go away
What will i find out
When i draw my final breath
I believe
I believe, I believe
There is no such thing
As death.
I believe
I believe, I believe
There is no such thing
As death.
I love them all so dearly
Please never fade away
The ones that I hold near me
Are with me every day
She says the kaddish
She cries, watches t.v.
I will remember
I will not
Turn away
We never turn away
We turn east
Sungaze
West
There’s no such thing
As best
There’s no such thing
At best
And
And
And
No such thing as death
Sometimes you are greater
Sometimes you are small
We rise fast and also faster
And then we fall
How can you pretend
To not hear at all
You should
Know by now
You are not
Stupid
But why
Must you
Always play
The fool?

ETCHINGS
Music- star card, creativity, writing, strong
Songwriting- knack for expression
Composing music, wouldn’t hurt to do school
FIGHT for SINGING
Good band- start your own band
Need to be in the front
It’s ok for now but better to have own band
3rd st. Promenade- put money away
Share what i have
Will find a better job- sales related
Good with sales
Extra work
Girl with blond hair, 30s blue eyes
Diane or ellen
Slender 5/7
Into music
A movie but not immediately
Sales service good for acting and music
L.a. A good area- acting clas lacc male brownish hair, good at what he does
Good for brian in the band
Meant for creative
Made the right choice
Phone sales
Voice coasch
Singing @ la cc
Wait until dec to sell car
Serious samurai
Stephaniecheever@ca.rr.com
The universe enjoys speed
Sugar
Addiction- sweet tooth alt sweeteners stevia, etc.
Lyric:
I only see in black and whiet not thinking about what’s wrong or right technicolor, won’t you come my way?in The form of a
Girl who has the right things to say.
Focus on your strengths itwill overcome weakness
New song E 3x d-e bbabag#f#e3xdea
Temp- 7075761670 1059 4th st.
Lyrics
Is the last noon and the full moon and the skyline a moment in time bedouin is a serpent is a sea monsteri am disciplined
Nick Cave works on his writing 6 days a week 730 am-530 pm i am persistent diligent positive fighting strong never relenting aggressive aloha all encompassing all embracing i am going to make an improvement in penmanship. In my performance in my life i am inspired by those. Who live their life close to the edge.
To have n attitude proper to a real sword means to be deadly serious. Plan only pos thinking get exercise, surf food list- sea veggies- arame, dulce, liziki kelp. Kombu nori wakame cacao powder coconuts agave hemp and almond milk Raw cream.
Goji berries. I can see the future so brightly it blinds my eyes. - matt monarch
Face like flint
The performance of an expert seems relaxed but leaves no gaps
Actions of trained people do not seem rushed
I am constantly inspired.
9/18/08- i now begin my life anew. I disregard what does not belong to me. I have been set free by own integrity. In the game of love right and wrong are not quickl repaid. Begin again start where you are and see where changes are. If iget out of here at 5, i want to be dazzled by your love we gotta fit like a hand in glove we must belong like shovel and tar if we gonna go far, we gotta be like the sun and the moon, even if the dream is over soon. We sgoota go where wegone before start all over again witha little bit more.
Book of five rings by miyamoto musashi.

COLOR ME CRAZY, BUT I’VE GOT A QUESTION: WHY DO PEOPLE GO INTO BOOKSTORES AND OTHER QUIET PLACES SEEMINGLY SPECIFICALLY TO TALK ON THEIR CELL PHONES? IT’S AS IF THEY WERE DRIVING DOWN THE STREET AND THEIR PHONE RINGS.
“Hey darling, I’m going to call you back in a minute.I Need to go find the nearest quietest coffee shop so i can go in there and have a deeply personal conversation with you.” And then they always sit by ME! And it’s always when i’m trying to write my comedy bits- So that’s my excuse for not having enough material!
SO, since this is my first time doing comedy, it’s kind of like my first day on the job. Like when you’re working in a restaurant and you spill wine on a lady’s dress. You’re like, get over it, woman. This is my first day! I didn’t know how easy it would be to spill wine all over you!
Or you accidently give someone something they’re allergic to. You see them being carried out on a stretcher? Oh yeah, you don’t like peanuts? I remember you saying something about that but it’s my first day- how was i supposed to know!
SOR-RY!
Speaking of ambulances, that’s something i don’t want to drive for a living. I know myself well enough to to know that i don’t want to be an EMT. I mean you’ve got to do mouth to mouth cpr on a perfect stranger? No thanks. I was taking this physical therapy class and I’d get freaked out that i was going to catch germs from a mannequin. I’m just NOT going to blow into somebody’s mouth as part of my job description, unless it’s for jessica alba, megan fox, or maybe (to a hot girl) you.
So, anyways, sometimes i wish i was a thief but my morals always get in the way. My parents raised me with too much integrity i guess. All that 10 commandments stuff, do unto others, yada yada yada.Sometimes When i walk into a supermarket at 2 in the morning, that ice cream is just asking me to grab it and run without paying for it. At walgreens i have to beg them to take my money. I bring my products or whatever i’m buying up to the front of the counter and no body is even there! Usually i gotta wake up the security guard just to get a cashier. Then that’s a whole dick dance. He yawns, rolls his eyes, acts like i frickin interrupted his dreams. He gets on the loudspeaker ‘i need a cashier at aisle 6. Cashier at aisle 6!’ Then a minute or two later some guy who looks like he just slept on somebody’s couch struts in. That gonna be all for you? You have a nice day. Sometimes if i’m feeling ballsy i say ‘next time i’m stealing it.’ I mean these cats ain’t making commission on their sales anyways! But alas, i always thing of my darling mother crying over the time her son got caught stealing a journey cassette in 1984. So i don’t do it.
So, i pride myself on being frugal. I mean, i was raised in a blue collar household. Not much money around- i’ve had to learn to buckle down and save just to afford the basics in life. But what is the point? I just go a speeding ticket. I had to pay 300 dollars. What’s the point of saving a buck
here and there when some cops waiting to bust you for going ten miles over the speeding limit?
Roommmates
I had a roommate once. Before i lived with him i thought he was just great! I thought he was one of the coolest guys in the world! All smiles and handshakes! Let’s just say that now we no longer talk. You know how at first when you’re a roommate with someone and you’re trying to be all polite? You’re like, is it ok if i stick my can opener on the counter? I’m just going to hang my towel on that rack, is that ok? You’re creeping around, walking on eggshells, trying to be a good roommate. Trying not to get laid to much, avoiding loud lovers. Then it happens! You’ve got that last piece of pizza you saved in the fridge. You’ve been waiting all day to get home from work so that you can gnaw on that piece of pizza like the little rat bastard you are. And lo and behold, you open up the fridge and it’s gone! The war is on! You start forgetting to hang up your towels! You don’t say why. (Goddamn pizza eater!) You just can’t bring yourself to clean up your mess in the kitchen so then you can get in a nice angry fight when it’s brought up. That’s why I love living alone. Living with people sucks! I think even if i get married i won’t live with my wife. Maybe she can get a house down the street, but she ain’t moving in with me, no no no no.
One time i had this roommate he was really cool at first. Then he got a night shift job. We split a studio apartment so you could imagine it was a bit hectic. He’d be crashed out on the floor and i couldn’t make any noise if i was there. Then at night he’d ask me for a ride because of course he didn’t have a car. Then When i wanted to move out he gave me a guilt trip about that.
Pros to the u.s. Becoming a 3rd world nation.
You can cook your pets and eat them if you aren’t vegetarian. Hot cat on a stick. maybe make some dog jerky. What? You can eat a cow but you can’t eat a dog? What are cows? Chopped liver? You know in india cows roam the streets unobstructed. Here they’re so opressed while everybody sticks up for dogs and cats just because they’re cute. WELL WHAT ABOUT COWS? THEY’RE CUTE TOO!
Another thing cool about living in a third world country- you can walk out of kmart with a t.v. If they try to bust you just say you didn’t know about the law.
So my brother told me that salvation army got a 1.5 Billion dollar donation from the former owner of mcdonalds, ray croc’s wife. so i was in marin county the other day and i decided to shop with all the slackers. It looked pretty damn fancy for a thrift store! We’re talking the Saks 5th avenue of thrift stores! It didn’t smell like it though. And they had some interesting employees. This one guy was talking really loud. kind of sounded like he had been on electrical shock treatment for a few days.”You Forgot to put a tag on these shorts.” I heard him ordering people around, kind of made me wonder if there was some kind of affirmative action for people with special difficulties. Like when you call about your student loans, instead of directing you to a call center in india, maybe they can just employ the local group home. They’re like, “you shut up and listen to me- i hang up on you- stupid!”

voxvoxvox

a lesson:
5/9
Don't look down at strings/ mic goes down like ice cream cone/ tilt head a little/ off to the side is good/ let audience see mouth for words/ bob barker on price is right/ sinatra/ davis jr. etc/ head up chin down/ get out of the throat/ visualize between the ears or forehead/ use resonance/ sound is going back out and up in back of you, 22 degree angle/ widen soft palate/ refocus chin, soft palate/ warmer richer/ take mind away from the throat/ lips under nose under eyes above forehead back of shoulders chest back of head each creates a different color for certain words, a different tone./ Even in talking beware of the tone/ lift head from shoulders with chin down, pull from crown of the head/ head up not chin/ communicate with audience, don't take eyes off them, communicate your words, unless drum or guitar solo, etc. otherwise you must have eyes on audience- every phrase move your focus/ look somewhere else/ the character talks different each phrase/ hold that persons attention for each phrase/ but never look them in the eye/ tits, hairdo, nose, etc./ even in between two people/ ears as close as you get there/ even the forehead/ shoot the sound in back of you/ joint is opened again for rock, arainna, shoot it back of you/ ok/ you do oooooo / you don't have to have your mouth opened wide./ push tounge highe to rof of mouth, like dog. /

EDD Incredible1!